Update #10

USER: EMMA HAS INPUT SELF-DESTRUCT MECHANISM IN SENTIENT ROBOT. UPDATES TO TERMINATE PREMATURELY.

1. How Emma has been feeling

Useless, a little heartbroken. But somehow content! Somehow in love with my story, impossibly!

I have been going around my grade and asking people how they feel about love. This is half-meant as investigation for my novel. The other half of the meaning is as private as the condition of my kidneys. Asking teenagers about their crushes in scientific language (see: this) will probably further cement the general idea that I am a freak but really, who cares? They are willing to talk to me seriously! These children are baring their secret hearts to me! I couldn’t be more grateful if I tried.

I am a happy girl, for this and other reasons. Yes, not¬†everything¬†is going splendidly, yes, I feel very strongly all the bad things, but I manage. I manage the best and only way I know how. You say to me, “I feel terrible today, I am in one of those adolescent moods” and I want to grab you by the shoulders and say “darling, life is beautiful!”